dear blog...

i haven't forgotten about you and the goals. i miss you actually while i've been busy with the food blog. i miss how i can type anything here...anything that comes to my mind...a type of freedom that i don't have in other spaces. no editing, no holding back (ok some of course) and straight out BLAH here.

so im just going to say...

1. i'm making peanut butter and nutella popsicles now. not now, like 5 minutes ago. breakfast of the champions!

2. i'm wondering what to do with the daylight...haha yes i'm listening to brooke fraser now too.

3. i'm fascinated with nature and how my skin heals so quickly and how my lips got swollen last night.

4. i seriously think im weird.

5. my heart is indescribably heavy...but im just gonna continue to smile and get through things by His grace.

6. i think phrases like 'killing time' shouldn't be used at all. time is precious...even seconds of our lives.

7. i wore this really nice white pant to work today. love summer white pants. i couldn't stop staring at my pants all day long. haha

8. i go strolling in the park at lunch and i see the cutest baby ducklings with their parents. they are always going around this tiny pond day after day. so i go see them everyday. i wonder if for them, is the pond and its surrounding (e.g. park), THE world? that's as big as they imagine the world to be? i know that's prob how God sees me too. the earth...the universe...bigger than my imagination. fascinating..

9. i was just talking to someone i haven't met on the phone. and i dont know whether its a she or a he. this person has a guy name but im sure it's a more feminine voice. im really confused...guess ill find out soon.

10. i saw a bald kid today so i'm guessing she has cancer. i know people feel extra terrible when they see sick kids...but i feel equal amount of sadness when i see sick old/senior people. they've lived a longer life...and they know more about things...wouldn't this sickness make it harder just because they've been in this world longer?

11. why are my points getting longer and longer. i like short.

12. lots of things happened since my last post. for example, i downed an espresso last week...took the hard stuff like a man! no sugar. whoa.

13. ok maybe time to do something more productive. but yeah, i just want to tell you blog, that i still remember you. are we okay then? forgive me? thanks!