Sunday, September 04, 2011

tree


A friend of mine recently went for an interview where the interviewers asked him:
"If you could be a tree, what kind of tree would you be?"

Needless to say, a strange question indeed for entry into a medical training program. I can't recall his response, but today as I went for a stroll and came upon many magnificent and grand trees, I wondered upon this question myself.

I'm no botanist or arboriculturist (I could probably only count with one hand how many different type of trees I know by name), but I want to be a tree with my root so deep into the ground such that no amount of lightning/hurricane/strong wind could bring me down. I want to be a tree that bears fruits, so that when people walk up close, they can see the fruits and not just a bunch of leaves! 

I desire to be more like trees actually. Because they do what they're supposed to do...as they're created to do: just concentrate on bearing fruits/growing/rooting deep into ground. You don't see trees doing crazy things like selling candies, do you?! ;)

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

new home

So I've decided to move Project 365 into a new space just dedicated to a photo a day and nothing else...

http://drippingsofgrace.blogspot.com/

Just managed to update it tonight too after a week of MIA.

p.s. I possibly have more blogs than I have of shoes. True story.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Order


Finally got to do a little (long overdue) clean-up/re-arrangement in my room today.
Now I feel better sitting in this organised room listening to some classical music.
Maybe I should light up the candle too while I'm at it. Haha.

Monday, July 18, 2011

captivating? not!


In between sorting out bills/statements and coffee sipping, I managed to start reading this book.

I am considering whether to continue reading as I do not agree with all that the authors are getting at and the use of Scriptures which are out of context.

Oh and not to mention all the pop culture references too!

Sunday, July 17, 2011

up


Another shot of the sky and clouds...
I'm forever fascinated by the sky I think.
Just hope this doesn't turn in Project Sky 365 - because I do do other things other than looking up into the sky. 

(Just finished watching a DVD - Sweet Home Alabama. Love that movie!)

Saturday, July 16, 2011

late night chocolate


Sat night pigging out with JK at San Churro after some Korean for dinner.
Had an interesting and looong convo with JK tonight - my NZ high school friend. 
Sometimes I worry that I won't have anything to talk to my old friends about because we haven't seen each other for so long.
But then once you start talking, you realised you needn't worry about it.
Thank God for friendships.

got time for...Cookie Time?


15th July 2011


Yesterday, AK came over to give me these special cookies from...NZ!
You can't be a kiwi and not know about these cookies, aka Cookie Time.
It's almost like a staple!

High school memories...
...putting a Cookie Time into the microwave so that the chocolate chips melt...
...putting the cookie in the freezer so that it's rock hard. Nice.
...having Cookie Time for lunch. 
Hmmm. 
Yummy.
Unhealthy. 
But yummy.

I loved those cookies so much that all my e-mail accounts and online chat handles/aliases were all:
Cookie Time.
I wasn't trying to be cute or wanted to be called a 'cookie'. Ugh.
I just loved those cookies so much!
How sad.
That must've been my 'rebellious' teenage years.

But that was back in high school.
I'm not weird anymore!
:)
I think.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

the sun has gone to bed

13th July 2011


Stayed up to update my resume. 
Thought it'd be fun to 'randomly' submit it somewhere before I sleep.
Got a call the next day (today) - technical phone interview right on the spot.
No question I sounded like a dork. No biggies though, just for fun ;)

14th July 2011


First thing I saw when I got home were the fluffy clouds + bright moon outside on the balcony.

I see the moon, the moon sees me. 
God bless the moon, God bless me!

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

A little backyard party

*12th July 2011*


I walked past an afternoon garden party...it was noisy and it was in action.
More guests arrived later on.

Monday, July 11, 2011

bubbly


My best friend in primary school is engaged and it's taken me a long time to write a card to her.

Feels like yesterday when we were braiding each other's hair and playing Barbie together.

"...XXX popped the question over dinner that he secretly organised with 2 of our close friends, my entire family and his parents -- they all attended). I never knew, there was so much to consider and how much time and effort is required."

Congrats my dear friend!

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Project 365

I know that I haven't completed my 101 goals in 1001 days but AD inspired me to start Project 365 today...

I love the idea of taking a photo a day, even on the most uninteresting day, to capture my year and what I come across everyday in the ordinary life that I lead. And to improve my photography skills/creativity of course. It is not going to be easy I know. There will be days I won't even want to take out my camera and point it in any direction. But I shall try! :)

I probably won't be uploading the photos everyday but hopefully at least once a week...

Here's my very first photo taken in a park using my new Canon s95 (portable point and shoot FTW!)


It's not a great photo but to me it is: blushing. delicate. gentle. blooming. life on a cold winters day.
Might be my favourite colour too. 
If I could wear this flower, I would.

Tuesday, July 05, 2011

from this morning's devotion...



Whenever the cloud lifted from above the tent, the Israelites set out; wherever the cloud settled, the Israelites encamped. At the LORD’s command they encamped, and at the LORD’s command they set out. They obeyed the LORD’s order, in accordance with his command through Moses.

-Numbers 9:17, 23

When Moses was leading the Israelites out of Egypt, they had to learn to depend on God for every step of their journey to the promised land. And when they did not do that, they got into troubles...

"If you are at a place in your life where you feel as if you can't take one step without the Lord's help, be glad. He has you where He wants you..."


Sunday, June 26, 2011


Things are almost never the way they seem on the outside. Are they ever...

And sometimes you might wish you could pour everything out to somebody who'd understand. Everything. Frustrations. Disappointments. Past hurts. Heartaches. You know, that kinda nasty stuff.

But that somebody is hard to find. It's gotta be somebody who's not going to gossip behind your back after your convo. Someone you could trust. That's a start. Someone who's always there. Someone who has the solution. That'd be good. Someone who can calm and heal your heart. And change you.

And I almost forgot that He was there the whole time for me. Silly me.

Afterall, He's the Author of my life. He knows everything.

My source of strength, love, peace and hope.

And I pray yours too...

Thursday, June 16, 2011

brokenness

just been thinking about this broken world...

are we all in the pursuit of some kinda significance from this world that demands us to 'be the best you can be', to prove ourselves constantly (even though it'll never be enough)?

and then, the world chucks you aside when you are no longer 'worthy' or can longer prove your worthiness (even though it may not be in your control).

that's brokenness. well one aspect of the broken world anyway!

Father we ask of You this day, come and heal our land.
Knit our hearts together,
That your glory might be seen in us;
Then the world will know that Jesus Christ is Lord!
-One Voice

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

dear blog...

i haven't forgotten about you and the goals. i miss you actually while i've been busy with the food blog. i miss how i can type anything here...anything that comes to my mind...a type of freedom that i don't have in other spaces. no editing, no holding back (ok some of course) and straight out BLAH here.

so im just going to say...

1. i'm making peanut butter and nutella popsicles now. not now, like 5 minutes ago. breakfast of the champions!

2. i'm wondering what to do with the daylight...haha yes i'm listening to brooke fraser now too.

3. i'm fascinated with nature and how my skin heals so quickly and how my lips got swollen last night.

4. i seriously think im weird.

5. my heart is indescribably heavy...but im just gonna continue to smile and get through things by His grace.

6. i think phrases like 'killing time' shouldn't be used at all. time is precious...even seconds of our lives.

7. i wore this really nice white pant to work today. love summer white pants. i couldn't stop staring at my pants all day long. haha

8. i go strolling in the park at lunch and i see the cutest baby ducklings with their parents. they are always going around this tiny pond day after day. so i go see them everyday. i wonder if for them, is the pond and its surrounding (e.g. park), THE world? that's as big as they imagine the world to be? i know that's prob how God sees me too. the earth...the universe...bigger than my imagination. fascinating..

9. i was just talking to someone i haven't met on the phone. and i dont know whether its a she or a he. this person has a guy name but im sure it's a more feminine voice. im really confused...guess ill find out soon.

10. i saw a bald kid today so i'm guessing she has cancer. i know people feel extra terrible when they see sick kids...but i feel equal amount of sadness when i see sick old/senior people. they've lived a longer life...and they know more about things...wouldn't this sickness make it harder just because they've been in this world longer?

11. why are my points getting longer and longer. i like short.

12. lots of things happened since my last post. for example, i downed an espresso last week...took the hard stuff like a man! no sugar. whoa.

13. ok maybe time to do something more productive. but yeah, i just want to tell you blog, that i still remember you. are we okay then? forgive me? thanks!

Sunday, March 21, 2010

postcards

Here are some of my favourite's from http://icanread.tumblr.com/








Tuesday, March 09, 2010

move with the food!

I've moved all my food related posts to my new blog:

http://greencilantro.blogspot.com/

This blog will now only feature my progress on those 101 goals ;)

Sunday, March 07, 2010

memories..

Sunday night again - not my favourite time of the week as I prepare for another week of work and uni ;)

I took my guitar to a music store to get it re-stringed finally so I can start drumming again soon - I'm excited! It's gonna have a beautiful now sound when I pick it up! The store person said my guitar is in great health - pretty much in a brand new condition and I told him that it's actually over 20 years old! Then that got me thinking that 'wow I am getting old!'. I don't think I have ever said something like 'That was 20 years ago' until recently...

Heard this quote today by C.S. Lewis:

If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world."

Just sorting through some pictures I took in Europe over 2 years ago tonight also.
I meant to put them up after my trip but never got to put aside some time to go through thousands of them. But now every once in a while, I would walk down the memory lane and take myself back to those pre-work days when I was brave and determined to backpack across Europe myself.

While I've taken albums of pics of beautiful monuments and landscape, I realised that I've pretty much forgotten where a lot of the pics were taken. I've lost the story associated each photo...it's sad!

Came across a bunch of meaningful ones tho. Thought I'd post 3 up.

This was at the south of Germany near Neuschwanstein (aka the Disney Castle) and Austria . I remember standing here in awe...thinking 'I am standing in Germany looking at the Austrian mountains'. Just then these geese in the pond came to view and I just thought it doesn't get any better than that.


This photo represents a typical 'service station break' for me in Europe. This was in Munich. Time to grab a snack and hot chocolate and scribble things in my journal. I've spent time in cafes planning my next country to visit and also people watching - observing how the locals interact with their family and friends and how they eat their food. I love cafe times.

This was taken in Luxembourg. I was not meant to come here because I was sick in Belgium. But this was one of the moments where I thought to myself, "it's either now or never...no regrets!" So eventually I pulled myself out of the hostel bed and took a train here...and it rained and RAINED. I had no umbrella and there was sooo much walking involved in this city that even my socks were completely soaked. I remember the squish squish sound I hear with each step. Also because of the bad weather, there were hardly anyone on the streets or at the tourist sights. It was like a deserted city on a cold grey misty day. I was so lonely and sick. This was the first day that I felt homesick.

Anyways, I'm off to bed!

Monday, March 01, 2010

and just when you think it couldn't get any worse...

Apparently today's the first day of Autumn! Sydney greeted this day appropriately I thought - grey, cloudy sky and showers throughout the day.

I woke up on this day with a sore throat and painful muscles all over and so decided it would be a good idea to work from home. Just after I sent out an email to my manager to say that I'd be working from home, I realised that I had forgotten to bring my battery/charger home so would only be able to work for a maximum of 2 hours....hehe ooops. Oh wells, I could just take the afternoon off and relax before I start the first day of uni later at night! ;)

Then I decided to bake a cake. I've been wanting to bake something called a 'crack pie' for a long time! No, it doesn't contain crack or any type of drugs, but it was so-called by David Chang and Christina Tosi (chefs of Momofuku in NYC) because it is highly addictive! In NYC, this cake sells at $44 a pie! I found the recipe on LA Times over the weekend and managed to buy all the ingredients required, so what better time to bake it than this Monday afternoon?!

There are 3 components to this cake and so it was definitely time consuming. I had to make some cookies first, then break those cookies into crumbs to make the pie base. Then there is the filling of the pie as well. It took me just over 2 hours to complete my pie in between watching Oprah (today was on failing marriages due to financial stress...as usual - communication is the key!).

My pie actually looked very pretty - prettier than the ones I see online ;) I went to my room to grab my camera and as I as about to take a picture of the beautiful gooey caramel-y cake, the battery died right then and there. So I got another camera and believe it or not, it died in the same fashion as the previous. And then I realised I left my charger in Taiwan over the December holiday too so re-charge is not an option... Although disappointed, the thought of eating the cake soon made up for it!

According to the recipe, I am supposed to chill the cake in the fridge for an hour before consuming. So into the fridge it went! Because we went grocery shopping yesterday, the fridge is as full as it can be. The only area with space is the top of the fridge with all the cans and bottles- probably not the most stable place anything. But I made sure that there were enough evenly spaced cans to support my pie. Yeah, you know where this is going right?! An hour later, I was rushing to prepare a quick dinner (because I had to leave home at 4pm in order to get to class on time) and when I opened my fridge door for the 2nd time, the whole pie came flying out (in what seems like slow motion)...it did graceful turn and then thump...face down! It took my brain a good 5 sec to register what had happened, and that the million little pieces of crumbs on the ground are what I had spent hours making in the morning. Why did I put the pie on the top shelf of the fridge?!?!?! Who is stupid enough to do that?! I couldn't believe something I had waited so long to taste is now a gooey mess on my kitchen floor. I took out a spoon, sat on the kitchen floor, and began to eat off the floor. I know, I AM disgusting but at that time I was too heartbroken to care (btw, just the top layer of course..hehe). I was saddened even more when I remembered that I couldn't even take a photo of the cake on the ground!

After I cleaned up, I was already running late for uni. On the way to the station, it started to pour heavily and I had forgotten my umbrella! I was almost completely drenched...Oh well, almost at the station anyways! Just then, I heard the train coming so I ran as fast as I could. At the ticket gate place, I looked into my bag frantically looking for my ticket - then it occured to me that I had left my weekly ticket in another bag at home. So I decided to buy a return ticket for today because I couldn't bother going home to get it. Waited for ages in line, and when it finally go to my turn, the station guy told me that they don't accept credit cards for ticket under $25...I had no money at all except a credit card because I had left my wallet at work since last Friday. I wasn't going to spend $25 on my ticket to uni, so I had no choice but to go home. Arghh. Already late - I was going to meeting Ying near Hyde Park to go to class together. After I grabbed my ticket and umbrella from home (it stopped raining as soon as I got my umbrella) I made my way to station again - heard the oncoming train and again ran towards the station. I missed my train by 2 seconds! Had to wait for another 10 minutes for the next train. At that moment, I think my flu worsened and I was starting to develop a fever!

Finally the train arrived. I sat down and felt jigging the first day of class already. At the next station, this guy with the worst ever B.O decided to sit next to me. It made my headache worse and I had to swallow a few panadols to calm myself down (not that panadol is a stabilizer or anything). He got off at the same station as me and I felt like he was following me because I could smell him long after I got off the train.

So I had to buy a bus pass to get to UNSW. I found a newsagent at Central station and thankfully they accept credit cards! However, after I swiped my credit card - the receipt sheet which I am supposed to sign didn't come out of the machine. The sales person banged that little black box on the top, from the side - thinking it'd fix the issue. I wasn't surprised by then because I knew whatever could go wrong...would go wrong! After what seems like a long time, they reversed the amount on my card and found another black machine which works to continue with the transaction. Yay...went smoothly this time!

I then successfully got on to a bus which took me to UNSW. By then it was way past 5pm (which is when the class starts) and was raining cats and dogs again. I had asked Ying to meet me in class instead and also asked her to send me the venue of the class. I got to the Red Centre (felt all nostalgic there because I had spent a lot of time in the Red Centre during my undergrad years). Found the room number that Ying sent me....the class has already started and the room was so dark that I could only see shadows of students. I saw an empty seat on the first row and sat there - the lecturer saw me coming in late and was so nice as she came and gave me a pile of course outline and papers etc. I looked at the words on the top of the pile.."Cardiovascular Diabetology"... Ummmmmmmm. I thought I had enrolled in Intro to Probability and Stochastic Processes. Maybe these postgrad courses are really advanced I thought. Or these are future projects/assignments.

I looked around and couldn't see Ying. But it was so dark anyways so I figured she must be behind me somewhere. As the lecture progressed, I was getting more and more confused. The lecturer talked of Clinical Trials and lots of biological terms. I flipped through the notes again and realised I was sitting in the wrong class. I didn't want to leave just like that because I was sitting right in front of the lecturer and she was so nice and all. How discouraging would it be for her if I just left in the middle of her talk?! I continued sitting there...until I gathered enough courage to make a run for the exit of the room!

Outside the class, I called Ying. WHERE ARE YOU!?!? She said she was in a faculty member's office trying to find the room as well (the room number she was given was wrong). I eventually met up with her and the girl who was helping her had to leave as it was way past her working hours. So we proceeded to find another office within the building to find a faculty member to help. We found this post grad girl in her office and she allowed us to use my computer to find the room. There were no information whatsoever on the faculty websites. So because there are 5 levels in the Red Centre building, we went level to level, searching through every single room. Most of them were empty. We then went through other surrounding buildings...Old Main Building, Robert Webster etc etc. By then I was wet - not sure if it was rain or me sweating, and feeling like I was running a marathon. We were at least 1 hr late for class already at that stage. Went back to Red Centre, found this nice postgrad person who said he's been working at the maths faculty for over 8 years and was pretty sure the room printed on the outline is the one that we've searched for (which is empty). He let us use his machine again and tried to help. We sat in his office for a while trying to figure out what to do. He then got more help from his colleagues and so we were all getting pretty confused at that stage. A

By then I had giving up going to class. But we thought we'd give it one last try. I saw this other office with someone inside and asked that dude for help. He pointed me to the office of the faculty head. Now, the faculty head was also very confused. Someone suggested to him that he call the lecturer of our course on her mobile phone. He was reluctant but eventually he had to. To my amazement, she picked up the phone and they chatted for a while. Then he hanged up and said "She decided to move the class to start next week! You would've known if you had checked the BlackBoard".

Long story short, BlackBoard is a new site used in UNSW for lecturers to post updates about their courses (I didn't know this site existed until today!). I had no access to that site because I wasn't enrolled properly (although when I emailed the course administrator last week, she assured me that I was properly enrolled).

So yeah, I had no idea that lecturers can just postpone week 1 to start on 'week 2'. Since when do things like that happen?! Also found out there is a midsession exam in 3 weeks time and also an assignment due by then as well...eeeek.

Made my way back home to Chatswood after what felt like a wasted journey to afar and went to dinner with Ying. A hot soup must be called for after a day like this. As I started to warm up at the restaurant and watched the rain splatter on the pavement, I began to chuckle at my 'misfortune' throughout the day...it feels surreal as if I am playing a role in a movie (probably because I was feverish too). It had been an eventful day to say the least...My patience was tested for sure - a roll in the eye when someone in front of me was talking so slowly, a groan when I missed my train, or a thought like "you don't know what I've been through today to be talking to me like this"... I may have gotten more ill than this morning and may have wasted some effort in my cake making and class finding - but I am sitting here, sheltered and warm at the end of the day (or on the first day of Autumn)- slurping on my hot soup while chatting with a friend. While I don't know whether tomorrow or the day after would be like today (I hope not!) I know that I am far more blessed than I deserve, that's what I know for sure.